went back tonight to the church i grew up in for the Christmas Eve celebration... you know what? i'll have more to say about this later. right now i've been up way too late and i need to sleep before santa comes.

dear friends back at the church of yore

here's the spoiler to what i want to really talk about: it was difficult in ways i didn't expect but mostly it has to do with me expecting it to feel like home... but instead i felt like i'd never been there before. it's been ten years and that place has been emptied and refilled several times over with so many lives, like so many other things it moves on without my consent :) but it remains that i was built there and was surprised and disappointed when it didn't know me as i walked in through the doors that i used from grade school through high school.

i stayed up way too late tonight blogging through the parties of this month, but then i spent time reading what i should have been meditating on today. Christmas is about  a lightness in the dark, the fulfillment of a promise. YHWH is here.

so here is my Christmas meditation, recalibration, celebration:
john 1:14
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.

matthew 1:22-23
All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet: "The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel" - which means, "God with us."

...and with that, it's 2am on Christmas morning and i'm going to sleep filled with a lot of love. visions of sugarplums and all that jazz. silent night, holy night... sweet dreams, kids