flashback

every now and again i'll just out of NOWHERE be transported for just a second to somewhere else. i'll remember the general awe of a streetcorner that exists somewhere, right now, in the world.

today i went back to two places: the first was china. we'd taken a bus, it had gotten late, and on the bus ride down the mountain four of us sat in the upper deck (yes, double decker) and chatted. i pulled the rubber band out of my hair and flung my head forward and then back, relishing the relaxation of my scalp after it had been pulled on for hours now. heard a funny sound behind me. someone was surprised. and sitting RIGHT BEHIND ME.

this was way back when i had the long hippie hair. it literally reached to my elbows. it had to have hit him in the face - - i turned and apologized in english for a good two minutes to the man sitting behind me that i didn't know was there. he seemed pretty amused, thank God.

the whole experience happened again, just now, contained in one spare moment. while i'm working on microsoft. just, you know, a push from the cosmos and then back to your regularly scheduled programming.

second: india. this one wasn't even a concrete moment, just seeing a market and a smell of some spice and just knowing what robin williams' character said in Good Will Hunting:

"Michelangelo, you know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations, him and the pope, sexual orientations, the whole works, right? But I'll bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You've never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling; seen that."

and i have that smell in my head, it's not actually present at Wunderman, it's a memory. i have a memory of a smell that comes back to me and paints the whole country inside my head and i know that if i sat very still, i could close my eyes and see everything.

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